A lover, a dreamer, a poet, a believer... Who I am inside

So many of you know that I have been on GuG for over a year now. I feel like I have come to know many of you, and have grown close to a select few of you. However, I don't feel like anyone really knows who I am. I suppose it's hard to really have an idea of who someone is on the inside because we are really restricted to the topics on the forums... So since many of you know of me, and some of you just know the name, I decided to talk a little about who I am. Perhaps with a greater insite, you will have a better grasp as to why I respond certain ways on the forums.


First, I suppose we must tackle my age. As of April 7th, I am 19 years old. The reason that I have always avioded telling my age is because on the internet you can be anyone you want. I would like to think that I can match the intelligence and conversations of someone older then myself, so why bother to identify myself with an age? I have always been judged by those older then me for my age, and I would rather have some place of freedom. I figure if I haven't been able to establish a reputation at this point, then I never will, so I have nothing to lose by saying it.

I have many things that bring me pleasure in life. One of them is writing. I have always needed a way to express my emotions, and instead of killing myself or going postal, I channeled all my emotions through words. Some of you have seen selected works that I have posted online, and most of them there the ones that had the least emotional connection... Again, now that I feel like I have nothing to hide, I can open up my world of writing to you all. With Hubby's permission, here is the link to my personal writing website. It is a work in progress, and is there until I feel ready to make some sort of book out of my works. Sign up for updates if you care to, and of course, any feedback is welcome.

That leads me in to the next thing: I have always taken negatives well. I mentioned this on another page, but I grew up the true geek child: Huge glasses, always carrying a book, would rather read or write instead of playing on the playground. This made me an outcast, and of course a target for teasing. I went through he11 and back from all the abuse I took... Despite the fact that I hated the world then, I can really see where longterm I was made stronger from this. I now can roll with the punches and take the good with the bad in life.

I'm religious. No, I will never try to force it down your throat; your beliefs are your own. However, because of this, certain things have always been close to my heart, and I would like to think that I have a strong moral sense. I am against sex before marriange, and therefor, all my past relationships have focused on this. I try not to cuss too much, always try to treat everyone as an equal, and not judge others because they have different beliefs or ideas then myself... Which is always important when you are on a forum like this one.

I live in the deep south, so I am not well diversed in various states and cultures around the united states. However, I am not so sheltered that I am not well versed in the ways of the world. I have taken two trips overseas, and visited 10 countries total. I have a true passion for travel, and hope to see the world as time goes on.

Yes, I am in college. I am persuing an english major with a specilization in writing and publication. I hope to eventually work in public relations.

I have very little life off the computer, which is why you will frequently see me online. I love my laptop, and would be nothing without it.

I'm still looking for love in this world...I have never really found osmeone that I truly connected with.

I have always been a come-to person for advice, or just as someone who will always listen. I can play peacekeeper, and will always be here for someone who needs an ear.

I enjoy studying history, which is why I'm a history minor. If the television is on in my house, it's usually watching Discovery or History, though as all of you have seen, I do watch American Idol as well as House MD.

I'm terrible at telling people about myself... If there is something you wish to know, just ask.

I'll always answer a direct question honestly. I feel like I have nothing to hide in life... You can test me. :P


I guess that's about it... I'm sure I missed something, so again, feel free to ask.


Welcome to my life, my nightmare, my existance.




aw, Rays you know I adore you :) I do my dear ray friend. I worship the quicksand you walk upon *giggles*



Haha. The oldest I've ever had anyone guess online was 35... Made me laugh. =]

 ---We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion- John Keating, Dead Poets Society.---

You can tell a lot of this from the posts and blogs you have written in the past, but I was blown away by the fact that you are 19. I thought you had just finished college! You are such an old soul. I have enjoyed getting to know you over the past year, and I am glad to know a bit more about you.

Thanks for this post. It takes courage to put yourself out there for everyone and I admire that. I have considered things you've said in response to my posts and thought of you as wise and enlightened and I admire that as well. Especially so, now that I know in how short a time you've reached such a height. I'm partial to thinkers and philosphers. =] I am looking forward to reading your writings, and i'm glad to know you better.

thanks again.


"Stay gold, Ponyboy. Stay gold." ~ Johnny


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