My first GUG blog entry ....

Not sure who all reads these things, but I thought it would be a better way (rather than the forums) to catch up. 

Yeah, I know I haven't been on in a while ... things have been crazy, odd, busy, and sometimes just plain bad in real life.  So much (BS) has gone on I'm not even sure where to begin.  I just got finished working a temp project that had me working 2nd shift, 14 days straight.  The temp jobs I've been working since I lost my job at the beginning of the year have not been cutting it.  At first they were great and pretty regular, but now they've slowed down and are only coming every couple of months.  So I've been out & about, pounding the streets, looking for something more stable.  Of course it won't be anything that I really want ... I can't have that until I finish school; IF I ever finish school ~sigh~ ... but it'll be better than what I'm doing now, which is nothing.  A paycheck is a paycheck, and right now paying my bills and feeding my animals is more important than me being happy with my job.

There's more, but it's gets more personal, sad, & dark ... and no offense to my fellow GUG'er, but I don't know you all well enough to lay all of that out.  Beside which, if I start typing out my thoughts & feeling on certain things going on right now I'm liable to start bawling my eyes out.  I've done enough crying the last couple of days, and I've got more ahead of me.

If I could get ride of this deep sense of being alone, I'd probably be able to handle this better.  However, the sad fact is that I AM alone.  I don't have very many friends to begin with ... I have practically none where I live, and everyone else lives in another state.  Things would be so much easier if I had someone to talk to and a shoulder to cry on. 

Anyway, enough of my pity party ... this is not the place for such things.  I should be on a bit more regularly now that my temp job is over.  Of course depending on how things go later in the week that could change, but hopefully not.  I think I've caught up on most of what I've missed.  Love the new layout!!  Glad to be back and looking forward to more GUG fun.

~Ze'ev/Denise/Neecey 

   

   

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 I appreciate everyone who lent a though or an ear.  I'm not very good a expressing myself emotionally.  Usually I keep it bottled up inside, but sometimes the pressure becomes too much and I end up letting a little slip out.

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"Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity." ~Unknown

I've tried telling myself that too, but I've been down in this pit for so long I can't remember what the sky looks like.  :( 

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"Artificial intelligence is no match for natural stupidity." ~Unknown

Aww Zeev, sorry to hear things are not going well for you, but were here to listen, I'm alone too, so you're not all by yourself.

 

What goes around comes around..don't forget it!
 

Well, my ear (or technically i guess my eyes) are also just a PM away. I'm always willing to listen. I hope things start lookin up for you. I keep telling myself sooner or later it has to go up, it cant' possibly go down forever! 

Be yourself...... Everyone else is taken!

 ~nods~  I have my own collection of sad/angry music for my various moods.  Right now I'm stuck on "Beautiful Disaster"
by Jon McLaughlin ... it really encompasses everything I'm dealing with right now.

Dr. STaRDoGG is prescribing for you:

 

LOTS of Blind Melon! When I start bumming out, which is all too often, I drown myself in Blind Melon and it always helps. ;)

Well we're always here for you when you need an ear ;) Hope you feel better.

-Pain is weakness leaving the body- USMC OOrah!

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